Blah, blah, blah...

Same thing another day. No feeling very motivated today either. Z is still sick which means my sweetie is very tired. He is so shot by the evening that his eyes are blood shot and he is dragging. Instead of our special cuddling I've been putting him to bed. Poor guy. He is usually so full of life and hates being tired. I'm just glad that he has been listening to me and going to sleep ;).

I'm tired as well, but not like that. I'm just kinda blah. Maybe I'll feel better after my workout. My food is still good. Still feel kinda lonely, but I'm taking steps to contact some old friends to see how they are doing.
I just found out that another old friend from college just got married. I'm totally happy for her. They dated for like 10 years so it was about time ;), but it still stings to find yet another friend married. I'm sure this feeling will pass. I just kinda feel stuck. I'm sure rest this weekend and whatnot will make me feel better.

Knock on wood. My face looks really good. Maybe the return to clean eating and drinking tons of water like I normally do after vacation did the trick? I don't know but I'm happy, but also expecting the big painful beasts (pimples) to come back this next month as it's only the 4th month. The 5th month is where I'm supposed to see the most changes. We'll see. I see the dermatologist on the 23rd for my next checkup, preggers test, and prescription so we'll see what she thinks.

Maybe this mood is due to the weather changing and things getting colder and darker earlier. I don't like it. Not at all. Could be. Just hanging in there. Wish I could get a hold of my best bud to go grab a really good martini unlike I've ever had as I don't like martini's at the Chapel.

She introduced me to them. They infuse their own vodka with watermelon and lavender (I know it doesn't sound good but it really is!), lychee and whatnot. Really yummy. I can't seem to get a hold of anyone. I've schedule a few get togethers the week after next, but it sucks that I have to schedule stuff, because we are all so busy. Heck Z and I might have to start scheduling our "special activities" soon, as we are too pooped by the end of the night to do more than cuddle a bit and sleep. Course he is not feeling well at all so that is totally understandable but frustrating ;).

Ahhh, nothing more the say. Just blah!

(Engaged 9/16/05)