Just living and trying to spend time with my Z before he leaves. I'm also not feeling up to par. Might be a bit of a cold or it could just be that I'm feeling run down. I didn't run last night, because I instead took Z on a date so he won't forget me when surrounded by pretty Irish lasses ;). Actually I trust him completely. So no worries there. I know he loves me. He tells and shows me all of the time. It's just nice to go on a formal date every once in a while ya know? I will be running tonight after I do some elliptical machine to warm up my legs and joints. My right ankle and knee have been achy just walking so I'm going to try to listen to that as well. Could be the weather change too. I'm just kind of tired, but moving on. Just waiting for things to settle down a bit in the next couple of weeks and not looking forward to being alone again. God I hate being dependent but I enjoy and desire to be touched, kissed, and cuddled by my man. All the while knowing that it's not just because he wants something from me (sex). It's because he loves me and wants to be near me.

Please oh please make the next 5 weeks pass by quickly...

(Engaged 9/16/05)