Last night Z informed me that we are going to the Pacific Northwest Ballet to see the Nutcracker for my birthday. I'm so excited! I have never been to the PNB. We get to dress up and everything. We're going to have lunch or dinner with my family and then Z will whisk me off of my feet to the Nutcracker. I can't wait. I've been to smaller productions in Tacoma that were wonderful with my parents over the years, but the PNB is bigger and has more grandeur. I'm so lucky that I have a man that thinks I'm special enough to take to such a special event and for my birthday no less. He said he's always wanted someone special to take to the Nutcracker and now he has me. Don't ya just love him? ;) I will definitely take pictures. What will I wear? Should I wear my hair up? Should I buy a new dress? We are going to have a blast. We have really good seats to boot. Thanks baby! You are marvelous!

Then on the 12th we are going to drive to Leavenworth to the Mountain Lodge Springs to stay a few days languishing in each other presence and going into the little town on Leavenworth to look at the sites and eat the many different types of food available along with a few delicious pints of local beer or different imports. I can't wait for this to happen either. I totally feel like a kid at Christmas and these wonderful events wont even be happening on Christmas :).

Z and I will be getting a tree this weekend and decorating it together. I hope we have enough time and don't have to feel rushed. I want to attend the parties as well but it's more important to me to get some quality time with my man and our new Christmas tree darn it!

I have never ever been so happy in my life. Yeah my weight is up a little bit my life is so much better. I am so loved and cherished. I can tell my mother is at ease as well. This is the first Thanksgiving we didn't fight and she is just so happy for me. I can't believe how wonderful my life is. Yes I must remind myself of this every once in a while and Z does as well. Thanks baby. The weight will come off but I don't want to miss all the wonderful things going on in my life while it does. I want to smile, laugh, love and be loved all at the same time. I feel so blessed.

I was doing well on the food front yesterday until last night. I was at 16.5 points for the day, but when I got home I was really hungry and the guys had made a Taco Bell run and I could still smell it. I really wanted a chicken burrito supreme fresco style but I wasn't about back out to get it, so I made a healthy turkey sandwich instead and took a few sips of pumpkin ale that I still had left. I didn't finish it though but still counted it as 1.5 points. I ended up with 22 points in all. Not bad, but not under 20 like I wanted. Today I'm off to a good start 7.5 so far and it's already 4pm. Working this late shift is throwing me off big time. I don't eat until 1pm most times and then I try to space my food out throughout the evening but then at 11:30 or midnight I get hungry once I get home. As long as I eat something healthy it will be okay but I would prefer to not eat anything at all. I hate feeling all full before you hop into bed. I've been able to work out before work though on this later schedule so I can't really complain at all.

(Engaged 9/16/05)