Me? I'm doing great this morning. I woke up and went to the gym and still feel the endorphins flowing through my body. I got up at 4:30am and hit the alarm once, but quickly got up afterwards, because I was wide awake. I have an appointment after work for my first consult for breast augmentation and then I'm having dinner with a girl friend at the Cheesecake Factory. Thai lettuce wrap here I come! I needed to get up early if I wanted to get my workout in, so I did exactly that. I also went to the gym last night. I was sniffing a bit and I was sooo cold. I didn't sweat as much as I normally do, but I am still feeling really physically tired from getting back from NY.

I had a great time, but am sorry to report that I can not go on vacation with my parents for longer than 3-4 days. We've tried it before and we always have the best intentions but we always end up fighting and they are always nasty and the things that are said are hurtful. I walked away when things started getting ugly which I'm proud of myself for doing AND I didn't go to the nearest bar, so I guess I'm doubly proud of myself. I also went to the gym almost every day except for Monday (got in too late) and Sunday (flew out at 7am), but I made up for it by working out for 2 hours for two other days during the week. I didn't eat like a crazy woman either. I was there to take in the sights and sounds of NY, not eat them. I didn't deny myself either. I had Sangria the first night and a Heineken the last night during dinner. I even ate more chocolate in the last week because of the Hershey�s store being located right next to our hotel, but things must have balanced out because I lost 2.4 lbs by the time I came back from vacation. Pretty cool huh? I guess I can control my urges. I was up to 156.8 before I left and boy was I upset! I just tried to keep moving and make good food choices. I didn't log anything because dial up was too expensive and I only had fast internet through the TV in the room for 24 and I used that time to email my Z in Dublin. We also talked almost every day. He is so sweet! The conversations totally kept me sane. I don't know what I would have done with out hearing his voice. It's so soothing to me.

I weighed in again this morning and I'm down another 1.8 which is even cooler. I'm just trying to treat my body like a temple and keep moving. Consistency is the key, so that is what I'm trying to do. I'm really enjoying how I'm feeling this morning after getting my butt up for a morning work out. It's been soooo looonnng that I forgot how good it feels. I'm thinking that if I can keep this up once Z gets back, I'll just pack my stuff the night before along with my lunch and shower at work so that I don't wake up the entire condo while I get ready and blow dry my hair etc. I'm really liking this feeling so hopefully I can keep it up. I'm going to try my best. I alone can make it happen right?

I just so want to be back in the low 140's. Z says when I loose the 10 lbs I want and when I get my boob job I will be DANGEROUS!! Tee hee. Looking forward to that day. Yes I am. I've put a lot of work into what goes into this body and how much it needs to sweat so I figure this improvement I want to make is part of the overall process. I can not wait. I have fears as well but I've done a lot of research and ask a lot of questions so I should be fine once they put me to sleep LOL! I can't wait to see what I found out tonight.

(Engaged 9/16/05)