153.2

Yup. Did my after Christmas reality check and got on the scale. I didn�t want to, but Z talked me into it. Actually I was planning on doing it, I was waiting until Saturday. To tell you the truth I probably would have talked myself out of it some how or �forgotten� so it was good that I did it today. I�ll try to get on that darn scale daily and will update the stats on the side bar on Saturdays. I�m going to try to use my WW online account and update my weight tracker and food daily. I had a bunch of false starts but I�ve got to keep trying.

I�ve been really, really tired. My hair is definitely coming out more than usual, but I�ve got lots to spare so I�m alright since I only have 3 more days left. I�ve been sleepy tired. I LOOK tired. I feel tired. My skin is dry, but clean except for a little red rash on the top of my nose. Strange but not bothersome. My eyes are dry too. I just keep up with the hydration and keep the lotion coming! Almost done. I think the accutane is finally starting to get to me. Thank goodness it happened now and not earlier. I�ve been feeling really down and like I just want to sleep. Unfortunately I�m a busy girl that has things to do at work so I can�t. I have had to literally pry myself out of bed the last couple of days and I have a really hard time while I sleep. I don�t understand. I�ve even started taking melatonin. So tired. I can�t wait to sleep in on Saturday. I think I can anyways. I hope I can. I really need to get some rest. Z tried to put me to bed early last night and I slept really well at first but then I got up to go pee. After that I slept fitfully!!! So incredibly frustrating. What makes it worse is I have to work really late tonight. I�m hoping I can fit in a workout between the end of my shift and the outage I�m helping with later this evening. I need to, because I can�t workout this afternoon as I said I would go to lunch with a co-worker. I wish I could cancel but that would be rude. I WILL go to the gym after work and rush to get done and showered before the outage. Unless they need me to help prepping. Oh well I�m going to have to roll with it today.

So far I�ve had 4.5 points for breakfast. We�re going to R3d R0bb1n for lunch. I hope I can find a salad I like there. I�ll save my albacore tuna with laughing cow cheese sandwich for dinner I guess. I�ll probably add a protein shake with it once I get done at the gym if I have the points. Yesterday I estimated that I ate 27.5 points. More than I wanted, but documented ever last morsel. That is a first. I�ll update my lunch stuff once I get back.

(Engaged 9/16/05)